howdy doooo guys.
been a while since i've used this. :$
anyways, i need to rant, and nobody really follows this so i decide i'll rant.
well, my self esteem is like.. -65465818189
i just can't see myself in a good light anymore.
all the girls at my school are prettier..
iunno. i just think i'm not good enough..
especially when this kid thinks other girls are cute.
i always think, how could i compare.. :/
oh well.
baii ..

I can't understand this anymore.. Have you lost feelings? Or, something.. 'cauuse, I hate to say it. But, you're so different. We used to be so lovey, and all 'omfg baby, your the best. :$' but it's not like that anymore. i miss that waay more then anythinggggg.. but i can't tell you taht. because i don't wanna start anything. but seriously. i miss that. alot..
:/

heeyguys.
i haven't blogged in a long time.
mostly because, i've been wasting my time on tumblr. :$
anywhooore.
i thought i'd catch up with you guys a bit.
so now. i'm in grade tennn.
which, is pretty fun. but way different then last year.
i miss grade nine alottt.
it was so much better.
this year, it's meeh.
things have changed.
i'm failing science. woohoo! :D
i'm getting a 28....
that's pretty bad, i've realized.
i seriously have never done so bad in my life. (n)
I suuuck.
anywhore.
so, i'm still dating the person i was from april.
MATTHEW. ♥
he and i have been dating for likeee. seven months.
well, it'll be seven months on november 7th. :D
our six month was on my birthday!
sick shiiiit eh?
anyyywhore.
so yeaah. he's the best. (L)
next suuubjectoo.
tumblr. FOLLOWTHISBITCHZ. www.beccagoesrawrr.tumblr.com
lately, i've been really into this band called
Versaemerge - if you don't know them. seriously. just check them out now.
i've been loving them so much, and after i saw the world of jenks episode,
with Sierra on it. I was like. YES. I WANT TO MEET HER.
So, now. me and my friend Carmelina, are going to their show, when they come to toronto on november 13th.
I'm sooo stoked. Specially cause, we're proobs gunna meeet up with Nicole and Bryannah. :3
Which, I can promise you, will be fun. c:
I also made some new friends this year.
Which is super cooool. :3
Me and my friends are getting annoyed with this person.
and, it's a bummer she's changed, but what can you do?
so. right now, i'm at my moms work, and i'm preeetty bored.
so i decided to blog. :D
I didn't get to go to school today because, i had a doctors appointment, which ended at 130 so there was no point in me going back. So, i came heree.
I went to the dentist yesterday too, got two fillings. ):
Without freezing, like a bauss.
soyeaah.
I think, thats all the catching up I need to do.
If not, i'll write a new one.
Loveyeeeh.
♥

Heeeey there..
I really wish we could talk more..
I mean, you are my mom and all..
I`m sorry, for the things I`ve done..
But, you`ve hurt me, beyond repair..

I`m sorry.

Becccachristina.

Deaaaaar Christofer Drew/Dallas Green,
I know, this was supposed to be for one person.
But, both of you have GREATLY inspired me.
I wish I could meet both of you, in hopes to see how you think.
Your music is a huuuuuge part in my life.

Thanks.
Beccachristina.

Serrrrriously.
You don`t know how much your hurting me.
Could you even try to care once and a while?
You call me. Yet you text. For like. Ten minutes..
Like, could you not call me, if your busy.
You like. uninentionally ignore me.
And, it pisses the fuck out of me.
Sure, you lie.
And, I know it.
I`m not stupid.
I hate the person you`ve become.
You`ve changed so much, from the person I used to know.
You don`t give a shit about me. And, you can`t even say you do.
You prefer everybody else but me..
I`m only there for when YOU need ME right?
Doesn`t matter that you make me feel unimportant?
Seeeeeeeriously..
You make me feel SOO unimportant.
If you only kneeeew..
We don`t just talk anymooore..
It`s only awkward conversations..
Seriously, who are you kidding?
You don`t show you give a fuck about me anymore..
I hate that I`m the only one trying.
Then you take shit so offensivly..
When your hurting me.
I`m tired of talking about t he same stuff..
I`m tired of always being pissed off.
Sure, I always have suspicions..
You don`t make me worry any lesss.
Whateveeeer man..

Internetfriend.
I used to have alot of these.
But now .. not so much.
So, here it goes for my internet i still talk too.
Deaaar ryki !
We have lots of memories.
Seriously.
I`ve known you for what ..
three years now?
Hollllly shit, does time fly or what? o:
Seriously, your pretty sick !
so yeah.
bye. :)