Monday, July 26, 2010
Love ;
The most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone. Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete. This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa. It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them. Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go.
I`ve read, and read through the definition of love. But, never quite understood it. I`d critisize every single relationship I`ve had, just to be exactly like that. It made me feel like, it wasn`t there. It made me see that, I have never found that yet. The definition of love, made it seem so easy to find, and so easy to keep. But still, I could never find the perfection that `Love` was supposed to be. For the fifteen years of my life. I believed love was non-existant. Then, I met you. You made me see that `Love` could really be perfection. You made me feel like my head was in the clouds, and that I could never be happier. I could be in the worst mood of life, and one smile from you, could make everything go away. Now, I completly understand what Love is. Sure, maybe it`s not PERFECT all the time. Maybe sometimes we fight, small or big. But, I always love you at the end of it, just the same as I did before, if not even more. Your all I want, and all I could ask for. Your the boy of my dreams. Your the person I trust the most. Your the person I fall asleep thinking about, and your the first thing on my mind when I wake up. Your my baby. I can`t do anything, without thinking about you. When I`m with you, everything disappears, and it`s completly impossible for me to be in a bad mood. You make me feel special when I`m with you. Nobodys ever made me feel that way. You made me believe that somebody can really be your world. That, I love you, and will love you till the end of time. Your amazing, in absolutly everyway. Your the most amazing boy, I have ever met, and will ever meet. Now, I really do know what love feels like. Thats all thanks to you. I really do love you.
Be mine forever?
Thanks. ♥
iloveyoubaby.
sincerly, beccachristina.
dear somebody..
i just wanted to you know some things,
that i`ve never said before ..
` do you know how it feels ?
to know that you were never allowed to act like a kid,
because you were too busy splitting up fights..
taking the hit,
screaming at the top of your lungs,
to keep the peace,
to walk on egg shells, all the time,
incase it starts another fight,
you said you care..
thats extreamly hard to believe,
when you wanted to send me to a foster home ..
because "i would be better off..
i hate that i feel this way,
and, forever this will be my cross to bare,
i kept these secrets ever since i was 3,
and, it never stopped till i was 10,
yet somehow, i still hate your guts,
i can`t stand to look at your face,
and know that your the reason,
that my family`s gone..
does it keep you up at night ?
to know that your daughter hates you ?
to know that, she still hurts .
to know that, forever you`ve scarred her ?
the anxiety comes back every once and a while,
like, now..
do you know ? you made it hard for me, not to trust people.. ?
and that`s because of you.
i don`t know how to get away from this,
or, to tell you how much you don`t mean to me,
leave me alone, and i`ll be fine.
you`ve ruined a lot of shit for me,
just be happy, i still live with you.
i`m absolutely cold towards you.
don`t tell me, it`s because you care
if you cared, you wouldn`t of left me alone for years.
no body understands how bad it was, when i was with you..
the scareaming, the hitting, the fights, and how intense they were,
is this what you want me to remember ?
is this supposed to make me trust you,
or believe you, when you say you care ?
was it your intention ..
that i don`t have any childhood memories, bc i block out all those years..
all the times, that i was in the middle, that i got hurt bc of you ?
you`ve hurt, scarred, and damaged me enough,
you mean NOTHING to me,
thanks for nothing.
-rebecca christina kennedy.
