Okay. I`ll admit it.
At times, I do miss you.
At times, I do feel bad.
You know, it`s not my fault, we don`t have a relationship.
It`s not my fault, that I don`t even live with you anymore.
This is you..
When I do feel bad or miss you,
it`s because I want to be close,
I want to be able to talk to you..
But, theres a limit..
Sad to say, I love you. Because I have too.
Because your family..
I really wish we could be closer.
But, this has been broken too long to fix..
I wish, I could explain.
I wish, I liked spending time with you.
It`s hard. Realize that..

sincerly - beccachristina. &hearts

What is really the meaning of beautiful?
Is it the way your hair falls?
Or, how you dress?
Or, how small of a size you are?
You know, I`m finished with labels, and pointless stupidity.
I`m finished, with people saying `She`s fat, she`s ugly`
Why? Why is it that, you have to be a certain size to be beautiful?
What if beautiful meant being yourself?
Overweight, weird, random, and freaky.
Or,
Skinny, corperate, and quiet.
Why does beautiful mean dressing by the latest trends?
Why does it mean being like everybody else?
I hate labels.
It makes everybody seem the same.
And, if one person isn`t in the right clique,
then what?
They get hated on.
Beautiful isn`t on the outside.
Beautiful is expressing yourself, as you.
And, no matter what anybody says,
It`s being yourself
Don`t let anybody tell you differently.
People will try and bring you down.
But you are beautiful

sincerly, beccachristina.

yeeees ! i know , it`s a bitttt early to be talking about the general statement of this `year`. But, lately i`ve been thinking alot about grade ten, and turning fifteen, and i`m somewhat excited. Sure, things aren`t going to change much. But, the idea excites me. This will be my second year at my highschool , St. Thomas Aquinas . Surprisingly , I don`t hate it as much as I thaught I would. So many good things have come out of going to aquinas . The people I`ve met , the opportunities i`ve been given . You know , all that jazz . I`ve met the most wonderful people there , and some of the worst . But , thats okay too . :$ , I`ve made new bestfriends , and I have a boyfriend , who I love so much . :$ , I thaught I`d regret aquinas , but i most def dont . Grade ten , is going to be so rad , it`s not even funny . I`ll be turning fifteen . Which , isn`t THAT big of a deal , but i`m still excited , one more year , t`ill i`m sixxxteen ! :):):) , I also can`t wait till fall , because well .. thats my favourite season . :) I just can`t wait . I miss all my friends from my old school , but I`ve had so many good things happen last year , without me even knowing it . This year , is going to be greaaaaaaat . ♥

Sincerly,
beccachristina .

Alright .
Please , get over yourself .
Nobody cares about you , and you`ve got so many enimies , it`s not even funny .
Your a stuck up , dumbass , who thinks he knows everything about this world .
Shut the fuck up .
Please , move on .
I have , everybody has .
Sure , I fucked up .
But , let go of it .
You tell me , that `we can`t even be friends, cause your such a dumbass`
Then , why the fuck do you alwaaaays message me first ?
Why do you always try talking to me , or getting involved with MY life ?
You say things to me , like i`m going to care what you think ..
I don`t . Your the last person , i`d trust with advice .
You call us hypocrites ?
Remember , when drinking was a problem ?
Remember , when you HAAATEED it ?
But , now you drink ?
I honestly don`t give a shit .
You could do meth , for all i care .
But , don`t go around calling me , or my bestfriend hypocrites , when your one yoruself .
Y our think your so fucking cool , because you don`t eat meat .
Because , `that makes you a better person`,
Y ou contradict all of your meaning , and morals .
ou say I do .
I`m also fifteen .
I alsoooo don`t control people .
Just moveeee onnnn .
I don`t care what you do , where you go , who you fuck with .
LLeave me and my friends alone k thnx .
Your fucking weird , and controlling .
Don`t comment on my shit .
Cause , obviously , you have the time , to still creep my shit .
My facebook , my formspring .
Stfu , and get a life .
ASnd , let me live mine , my way .
I`m not yours anymore , you can`t tell me what to do .

Sinverly,
bbeccachristina .

Can you realize when to stop?
Do you know when it`s enough?
Does me screaming in your face make you see it?
That your hurting everybody you touch.
Stop for a second.
Realize what you have around you.
Realize WHY whats around you, is around you.
I hope you see, that we`re all here, because you were a good person.
I hope you see, that the person you once were was gone.
But, I can slowly see him fading back.
Please, don`t put me where i used to be.
I don`t need to go back to that girl.
I hate that you ALWAYS get the benefit of the doubt.
I haaaate that you tell me you love me.
Then you do shit like that.
You wont do this to your girlfriend, cause she can leaev.
But you KNOW i wont.
You knoooow I need you.
So you think you can treat me like bullshit.
K WHATEVER.
im done.
peace.