Heeeey there..
I really wish we could talk more..
I mean, you are my mom and all..
I`m sorry, for the things I`ve done..
But, you`ve hurt me, beyond repair..

I`m sorry.

Becccachristina.

Deaaaaar Christofer Drew/Dallas Green,
I know, this was supposed to be for one person.
But, both of you have GREATLY inspired me.
I wish I could meet both of you, in hopes to see how you think.
Your music is a huuuuuge part in my life.

Thanks.
Beccachristina.

Serrrrriously.
You don`t know how much your hurting me.
Could you even try to care once and a while?
You call me. Yet you text. For like. Ten minutes..
Like, could you not call me, if your busy.
You like. uninentionally ignore me.
And, it pisses the fuck out of me.
Sure, you lie.
And, I know it.
I`m not stupid.
I hate the person you`ve become.
You`ve changed so much, from the person I used to know.
You don`t give a shit about me. And, you can`t even say you do.
You prefer everybody else but me..
I`m only there for when YOU need ME right?
Doesn`t matter that you make me feel unimportant?
Seeeeeeeriously..
You make me feel SOO unimportant.
If you only kneeeew..
We don`t just talk anymooore..
It`s only awkward conversations..
Seriously, who are you kidding?
You don`t show you give a fuck about me anymore..
I hate that I`m the only one trying.
Then you take shit so offensivly..
When your hurting me.
I`m tired of talking about t he same stuff..
I`m tired of always being pissed off.
Sure, I always have suspicions..
You don`t make me worry any lesss.
Whateveeeer man..

Internetfriend.
I used to have alot of these.
But now .. not so much.
So, here it goes for my internet i still talk too.
Deaaar ryki !
We have lots of memories.
Seriously.
I`ve known you for what ..
three years now?
Hollllly shit, does time fly or what? o:
Seriously, your pretty sick !
so yeah.
bye. :)

Dear ex .
[no names, but assumed.]
Why did you have to fuck me over so badly?
Why did you find ammusement in the fact that I was hurting?
Did you love how it felt to know you were the reason I cried for months?
Does it feel good to know I don`t trust because of you?
I hope so.
To be honest, you`ve left an inpact on me.
One, I wish wasn`t there.
But, then, at times, I`m glad we dated.
Because, learning from our brakeup, I matured alot.
I don`t understand you, to be honest..
You haaaaated me for months.
Now, you come back, and your `willing to talk`?
What is this?
You think, I wanna tell you how I feel about anything,
when I trusted you, you fucked me over.
So, no thanks.
Suuuure. I fucked up.
But, you made it worse.
I`m sooo glad your out of my life.

Sincerly, Beccachristina.

Dear Stranger,
Why are you always so glum?
Cheer up.
Give me a smile every once and a while.
And, maybe you`d get one back.
Be nicer.
Be kinder.
It`s not that much to ask.
Not just for me, but for anybody.
It makes life alot easier.

Sincerly, beccachristina

Dreams ;
Sometimes, your awful.
Sometimes, I wish they`d come true.
I wish I could describe my dreams.
Some of them are really fucked.
Maybe it`s because I`m creative.
Or just that happy.
I dream about unicorns and ghosts.
Sure,these things aren`t real.
But, maybe it`s a good way to escape reality for a while.
To dream of things that will never be.
Hm. I don`t know.
Just my thaughts.

Sincerly Beccachristina.

I don`t have any siblings.
So I dedicate this one to my dads girlfriend.
Steph.
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Dear Steph.
I know. Your not a family member.
But, for the past two years, you`ve been better to me then my actual family has.
You`ve been the shoulder I`ve cried on,
and you`ve always been there when I need advice.
Thank you so much, for making my dad as happy as he is.
Seriously, you both deserve the best.
I`m so glad you`ve found it.
I can truly say that you are famliy to me.
And, that I love you.
Thank you so much, for being a part of our family.
Me and my dad are so lucky.

Love, becca.

Parents.
Such a strong word.

Dear Daddy .
If I could describe to you, what you mean to me, I totally would.
When people see you and me, they can really see the definition of Daddys little girl.
We have gone through sooo much together, dad.
And, no matter what, I love you.
You`ll always be my rock.
And, You`re always the person I will run to when I need help.
I`m so glad that you found Steph.
You and her are totally inlove.
And, I love seeing you happy.
You deserve it.
I know, sometimes we have our difficulties.
But, I will always be here.
I love you papa.

Love, little one. ♥

Dear Mom .
I have alot of things to say to you.
That may not be the nicest.
I know, we don`t get along whatsoever.
And, I know, we bother eachother.
I know, we have both put eachother through so much bullshit.
I know, I`ve made you suffer for years.
As you have with me.
But. I love you.
Your my mom, and when you need me, I`ll be there.
We don`t have to be bestfriends.
Your my mom.
I still haven`t let go of our past.
But, I will let some of that go.
I love you.

Love, Rebecca.

Beeeestfriend.
Seriously.
I know people say blood is thicker then water.
But, we`ve proved that wrong.
Your like my sister, and I`m closer with you then any of my family.
I like how we`re always there for eachother no matter what,
Eveeeen if we drift.
We`re still always there.
Lol. I love how we hated eachother in grade six, and now we`re super tight.
Thank you for always being there for me.
I mean it.
There is sooo much I`ve gone through, and if it wasn`t for you.
Who knows if I`d still be around.

I love you bestfriend! ♥
sincerly beccachristina.